Let's start off with the news I found out right after I woke up today. I woke up pretty late, considering there's nothing to do on this day. Clearly I am not amused with that news. I have been Park Yoochun's fan for so long now. I know I didn't show my love to him nowadays (like, I rarely fangirl about him), but I am still his fan and still still still like him a lot! To read such news, it's very hard for me. However, I bear in mind that this is how entertainment world is, full of rumours and scandals. And by that, I here, will always believe in him. I believe he didn't do such things. All of those rumours are just media play and groundless. Go ahead, tell me that we never know the real person behind the camera. F that, because I am still his one silly fan who still put my trust on him no matter what happen. Somehow, the thing that effect me is actually not the news. Emotionally I am more affected with imagining what would he felt right now. I am worried if he is alright or not. I might be delusional, but I just hope he is doing fine. Reading all those hateful comments actually hurt me as a fan, and I wonder how is he, the person who got the cricticism would feel. I really want all these people who kept giving negative comments to stop because there are still no confirmation about the news, and we all didn't even knew if the news are true or simply a false charge. Seriously, just stop, please stop!
Put it aside, I tried to cheer myself up by watching Yutori Desu Ga Nani Ka episode 9, since the raw released yesterday. The episode really got my feelings up and down again. I don't know how to describe this, but maybe I shouldn't watch that episode yet, especially with all those messed things I had in my mind. But anyway, the drama is cute as always. I still laugh and smile and cry throughout the episode okey hehe.
This evening, my brother came home with my phone, which I sent to the repair centre last week. They changed the lcd screen because the screen couldn't not detect my touch (I think I talk about this in my previous entry?). I am quite happy to get my phone back. I inserted my sim card and damn it. The screen problem happened again! I touch everywhere on the screen, but it still won't detect my touch. I AM VERY PISSED OKEY. I sent it to the repair centre to get it fixed, not to get it back the same as before I sent it there ! I feel so mad, and I am still mad right now. Getting back the phone you sent to repair that still having the same problem even after you sent it is very not helping with such mood I had today.
Especially when you already had a messed mind since you woke up.
I am trying to be positive, but I don't know.
I just don't know.